So, what happens when you run into a friend you’ve not seen in 20 years?

I guess using the term “run into” is being used a bit liberally here. I was browsing a social networking site and saw the posting from someone I’ve not seen in 20 years. We used to hang out together as teenagers in the late ’80’s and haven’t really seen each other since. I know I’ve changed tremendously in the last 20 years and I’m nothing like the kid I once was…I guess that’s true for everyone. Back then I was trying to be everyone’s friend. When you’re trying to be what you think people want you to be you can’t …

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It only took 2.5 hours…

I had to go out and buy new patches… It’s funny how my cravings presented themselves this time. I just couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that I didn’t have my patch on and had to act. How pervasive this addiction is…how sneaky. It didn’t present the symptoms that I thought it would, it flanked me and came at me from a totally different direction. As soon as I got out to the car…RRRRIIIPPPP, the box came open. I grabbed one of the small envelopes and ply at it with my teeth until I was satisfied that I could checkmate …

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This should be interesting…

I’ve forgotten to wear my Nicotine patch today. That’s a smoking hot belly in that photo isn’t it? That’s why I used it. I actually didn’t realize that I had forgotten my patch until I was walking up the stairs at work. I’m not gibbing out at the moment, although I did have a slight craving earlier. It seems manageable at this point, which I’m sure could change later. I’ve only been taking this patch for 17 or so days so I’m sure I’m not ready to stop using them. It’s just terribly interesting to me that I forgot to …

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I’m no politico but…

I watched the State of the Union speech last night. I’m still trying to figure out if Bush is running for re-election. Of course I know he can’t because it’s constitutionally forbidden to run for more than 2 terms…but he sounded like he was running for election with his rhetoric. “America needs…” “The American people deserve…” “We need to come together for change…” Wasn’t GWB in office for the last few years? Aren’t all those issues he spoke of things he should have been working on for the last 7 years? And to see to continual rise and fall of …

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How do you spell failure?

It still remains to be seen but I don’t have much hope for the presentation being shown to Blizzard in the next few hours. I spent so much time working on demo’s and concepts for the project and I’ve just seen the final presentation and it’s horrific…absolutely horrible. It’s clear that it was not only made by someone who’s never played WoW but it seems like Bish has NEVER played a computer game in his life. It was whitewashed HP blather…as if it were for just any old project. What I don’t understand is how HP is unable to see …

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Friday At Last.

This is me after not smoking for 13 DAYS!!! No football this weekend so that means I won’t be committed to the TVfor 4 hours, so I’m sure I’ll fill that time with errands and chores that have been piling up. I’ve still not “created” a living room in my apartment. Since have all of my necessities in my bedroom I’ve not needed to have a living room. So, it’s currently filled with boxes and other things left there from the move. I’ll probably find some of the little things I was looking for when I finally move that stuff …

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Game Developers Conference

I won’t be attending this year unfortunately, my boss nixed the trip. It’s probably a good thing because I’d hate to get all excited about it and then lose it at the last minute. Still, it would be awesome to go. It’s frustrating for me on the one hand because it’s something that could help me enter the gaming workforce, which would be pretty decent. On the other hand I do have work here that needs to get done and I AM the Customer Service Manager. And it would cost a cool 3-4 grand to send me. The entrance tickets …

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I want you to punch me as hard as you can…

Sometimes you need a sharp smack to the pie hole to feel alive…I get it. I don’t need domestic trappings to be complete. I don’t need the Gap, or Chiabatta bread, or the Science Channel. I don’t need to watch 24, I don’t need the latest DVD, I don’t need Cigarettes to feel like a human being. It’s funny that a movie like Fightclub, which pushed that message was really only delivering the Gap, the Latest DVD and Cigs in a different flavor…a “fuck society” flavor. Speaking of “fuck” I’m still on the prowl for someone special. It’s actually more …

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Can you believe it’s been 10 days since I’ve smoked?

I can! I’ve been aware of every painful moment that’s passed. I’m still gibbing out and having difficulty with this whole process. No one ever said it would be easy but this is much harder than my previous attempts. I specifically didn’t want this to turn into a non-smoking blog because there is so much more to me than this, but it’s been front and center in my mind for the last week and few days. Urges have come at me at all hours of the day and night. I’m frigging dreaming about Cigarettes…it’s all a bit crazy. Nicotine is …

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